100 Days!

Today marks 100 days until D-Day... Baby Easton's Due Date. I'm having mixed emotions about this. On one hand, I can not wait for him to make his appearance and bless us with his presence. I can't wait to experience what all the other families feel, that "I can't even remember life without him/her" feeling. I'm so excited to see what he looks like and get to know his sweet little personality. I also can't wait to see Ben as a father because he already loves this little one so much.

But on the other hand, OMG, HOLY COW! This little human is going to rely on Ben and I to keep him alive. To care for him and love him and give him everything he needs for the rest of his life more or less. That's a huge responsibility! I've dreamed of being a mother for so long and now I'm less than 100 days to becoming one. I just can't help but thinking how much our lives are going to change in just that aspect. Life as a family of 3 instead of just 2 will be so different.

I also think I will miss being pregnant. I've been so blessed with an easy time that I enjoy every minute of it. I look at every little kick to the ribs as a special connection that only him and I have. I don't know that I am ready to share that with everyone.

I wonder what kind of mother/wife I'm going to be. I worry about the small things like keeping up with the housework and grocery shopping. I know they aren't what is really important, but I love taking care of Ben and I hope that I have the time and energy to continue to take care of him AND Easton.

So ready or not, here we go.... 100 days and counting.